My name is Stefanie. I am a 48 year old pastor's wife, mother to two grown children and a bonus daughter and Nona to two grandchildren. My life, recently, has been a hot mess. I have been struggling with perimenopause and most days feel like I am going crazy. I have never felt so out of control when it comes to how my body is feeling. Today the struggle was difficult. I broke down. I couldn't take all the feelings that were swirling in my mind and body. A wonderful co-worker of mine suggested that I find something to do outside of my family, church and job. Something of my own. I thought about taking up a hobby (crocheting sounds extremely intriguing) and still might, but God let me know that it was important to share my faith through these difficult times.